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dream?

Thursday, November 5, 2009 @ 7:46 PM

Today is very happening , everything seems like it was just a dream . A very bad dream , I suppose . Things wasn't as smooth as it is suppose to be :( Although everything isn't still alright for me , but still .. Thanks mates for making me smile ! ^^ Esp my baby , you all are so loved by me :) So glad we're in one group now , really !

Beo presentation is full of shit . I was very angry , and I just left the class when teacher is giving some comments . I seriously cannot stand it :'( Sarah and amanda run out and look for me and make me smile again ! :) Baby come aftermath and went back to class together ^^ Poa , then lunch at cafe . One of the lights went off and it's on fire . And we just sat down not long to buy food -.- We still sit super close to the light -.- Yes , we were like retards taking our food and go out of the cafe ! Went to the back of the cafe , finish up our food :) Gossip about (fillinthename) , super funny sia ! Lol . Pm1 class , then end at 2 plus , walk to simei with baby . Starbucks for coffee , then home .

Baby's house tomorrow , hopefully I won't breakdown into tears tomorrow :'( Sigh , mood is really very awful now . But one thing that cheers me up ! Baby is buying for me that bag that I want :D Loved .

Every little things I say here might leave a deep mark into your heart , but I'm still going to say . Because it's you who ask me to speak out what's on my mind . Yes , I shall not deny . I put boyfriend first . Do you know how it feels when , we know something yet you don't know ? But I know you can never feel it , because you'll always be updated . I read back all your past posts , don't mind it please . Your sundays is always your boyfriend day , so I do have a boyfriend day too . Infact , every single day is my boyfriend day . Cause , I see him everyday . But , that doesn't mean I don't care ? You remember that time you all say I treat you all as spare tyres ? I'm really upset at that time . When I talk to you all , you all think that because wf not around , then I talk to you all . Then I stop doing that , even if wf is around or not , I also never talk . Then ? Become I don't care . You say that you won't say who tells you all those shit things , so I didn't force you . I merely say that I'm no longer interested to know , and now , things become this way ? I really have no idea how to explain to you , because I really find it hard to make you believe . Even if me and him break up one day , don't worry .. You won't be treated as spare tyre . I hate it when people say I treat them as spare tyres when I didn't ! Feelings ? Not only you feel this way ? I don't know what to add on , seriously . Even if the other two didn't ask what happen , they'd still be standing by you and supporting you , right ? I'm super hurt when you say the last few sentence in your blog , now you know who's more worthy . So yes , that means I'm not worthy ? Okay , I shall not speak more . Let nature takes the causes , ya ?

I'm here again. ❤